Independence Day

Happy Birthday America!!! Today we celebrate and come together as a proud nation. :)

Today is also the day that I gave my two weeks notice to my current employer. I feel sad because I know I'm leaving a good group of people but I have to do what's best for not only my family but also for myself. I'm excited to start my new job with new challenges and for a new environment.

Funny thing is I love to write yet the words for my letter of resignation are failing to come to me or fall into their proper place. Nothing seems...right. I mean I don't want to say "Hey I quit!" but I don't want to come across as waffling like I'm unsure of my decision. I also want to express my gratitude because they (the company and the staff) allowed me a great deal of experience and opportunities; some of which probably assisted me in getting my current job.

I don't like it when words fail me. Especially when I really need them not to...Ok enough blabbering from me (because the words don't seem to be failing on this page...) I need to go finish my letter and get my behind to bed.

Random Fact: A chicken will lay bigger and stronger eggs if you change the lighting in such a way as to make them think a day is 28 hours long!

Good Times and Sunny Days Rock.

Can I just how much I love being on vacation? So far, even despite the week's starting weather which was rainy, I have had a blast and we didn't even go anywhere. Just stayed home...It's been so relaxing and unstressful. It's going to be rough going back on Sunday...

I've managed to get most of the last of the painting in the bathroom done...J just needs to get the last of the moulding cut so it can get painted and hung and then the bathroom will be done!!!! Done. 100% completely nothing left to do but enjoy done! I love finishing projects; it just makes the house feel more like ours. Granted it should probably already feel that way seeing as how we've been in the house for awhile but I love remodeling and putting our touch on things. Making the remodeling choice easier is the fact that the people who lived here prior to us had absolutely no taste and wallpapered everything is the most gaudy wallpaper imaginable. I'm talking 7 layers of wallpaper in 1 room alone - one of which is a black background with little neon hot pink flowers.

I can't seem to get into the summer television. There doesn't seem to be anything worth watching on or maybe I just haven't seen the right show. Reality television bothers me. I mean Survivor is a joke - if it was truly "survivor" they would strap some cameras to trees, drop them on some no name uncharted island and come back in 12 weeks (or whatever the time frame is) and whoever hasn't looked at the camera and said - I'm done! Get me off this freaking island, I want to go home - splits the pot. Drop the occasional food/fresh water crate...give them a satellite phone to call if someone gets hurt...heck even have a "safety" officer on hand to make sure everything is ok but this "tribal council", immunity contests, and you get voted off stuff is kinda lame and seriously - how is that surviving? Maybe I'm looking at it too literally. I have a tendency to do that.

Another thing I don't get is why reality television has become so popular. I mean I don't understand the draw or where the entertainment is. When I watch a show I want something that's going to have a plot, a flow; I want characters I can relate to (and yes write about but fan fiction is a topic for another blog)...not just watch this (which can be really, really hard if the act is less than talented) then vote for your favorite. I mean what if you liked more than one, how do you choose? Is it fair to any of the contestants to vote more than once? I'm sure there are tons of talented people who have gotten recognized from shows like American Idol and America's Got Talent but I would rather watch a talent show here and there. I mean basically those to shows are equivalent to Star Search that was on Saturday mornings when I was growing up.

On another note I went to see Eclipse this weekend. Excellent movie. I think it stayed closer to the books than any in the series so far. It had far more comedy in it than I expected to see which was nice because it balanced out the seriousness of the storyline. I liked that they incorporated not only the history of the Quileute tribe but also included that of Jasper and Rosalie. I loved how they handled Rosalie's back story; it was very poignant. They probably could have done more visually with Jasper's but it was good all the same. It stunk that they left out the tiny sliver of Alice's back story in Twilight. I mean it wasn't even as though they had to flash back to anything; it was a just a sentence or two in the book. I love when you get character development because it allows you to relate to or dislike a certain character more. Sometimes it even can cause you to see something from a different point of view other than your own. 

Ok time to get post this blog and unplug. I think I hear the sun calling my name again....

Random Fact: Mailing an entire building has been illegal in the U.S. since 1916 when a man mailed a 40,000-ton brick house across Utah to avoid high freight rates.

Realizations I've Come To.

My dog Moose is nuts and is a couple of french fries short of a Happy Meal. For example right now she's rolling around on the floor (our new wood laminate floor) trying to itch her back and doing this low throaty grunting noise, not enough to call it a growl but it's still just off. I'm not sure if she's angry/frustrated because she's having a hard time itching her back or if it's just her enjoying trying to itch her back. She'll do this for a decent period of time, 15 to 20 minutes, then she'll stop for awhile then start again. It's her new thing...She also sleeps in a position that we like to call the "seal". Wacky dog...

Sounds like rain again for the umpteenth time today. There's a low rumbling of thunder announcing it's approach...I was hoping to get outside this afternoon but I guess that's going to have to wait.

I suppose I should go get some more stuff done around the house. I've made myself a list today and I've done pretty good so far at knocking things off.

Random Fact: Identical twins do not have identical fingerprints.

Ponders (via text)

So I'm sitting here at work on Father's Day pondering things that are randomly crossing my mind....1st thing being changing my layout...but to what?? Any ideas?

2nd thing being how much I can't not wait to be on vacation next week! Not going anywhere but it'll be so nice to not have to come to work!!!

Fallen

So I just finished a really good book. It's called "Fallen" by Lauren Kate. It was really good and there's another book in the series due out in August. I finished it in 2 days. I couldn't put it down and I got completely lost in my own imagination. It very well might be the next Twilight...I also picked up "The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner" by Stephenie Meyer when we were at the bookstore on Wednesday. I haven't started to read that one yet. I'm always amazed at how lost I can get in a book. I hope I can pass that trait onto my kids because it's really nice to be able to fall into a really good book, especially if you're having a rough day. The only bad part it sometimes you have to finish the book in order to walk away...lol...but even then it's not the worse thing in the world....

I'm trying to squeeze in a quick blog entry before the day gets too busy. There isn't too much to say. We're still trying...I have a doctor's appointment on Monday for a midcycle. I'm just...in limbo I guess is the best description. Part of me, my heart is thumping away saying this cycle is going to be the cycle...The other, my brain, is saying we just need to get through this cycle to get to the hormone injections...

I think I'm going to unplug for the rest of the day...or until atleast much later tonight...Until then...

Random Fact: Rain contains vitamin B12.

June 2010

Haven't had much to post lately. The last round didn't work. Big shock. I knew it wasn't but I let my hopes get up anyway so of course I was upset when Tuesday came. Back to square one.

The funny thing is I'm calm at the moment. Tired but calm. I don't know why I'm so tired...

Ok I'm going to unplug and go relax -- I think I have a book that's been calling my name.

Random Fact: 3.The science of kissing is called philematology

I feel like crying.

I don't know why I allow myself to get my hopes up. I knew this round wasn't going to work; I told myself that and yet I feel like just curling into a ball and crying my eyes out. I took a test this afternoon and it was negative. The office said I should test on Wed so I know I tested early but I still think that it's telling the truth. I feel like I'm getting my period. I just want to have a family.

Random Fact: February 1865 is the only month in recorded history to not have a full moon.