Monday, November 30, 2009

Almost December Already....

Wow. I can't believe that it's almost December already. Where has this month gone? This year?? I feel like it's just flown by. I don't know if that makes me happy or sad.

On one hand I want to be excited about Christmas. On the other, I keep thinking I should be buying for a 5 month old. I know it's stupid and pointless but it's still in the back of my mind.

Someone said to me the other day that she didn't understand why pregnant people bother me so much. It wasn't like I was pregnant long enough to feel pregnant. It wasn't like I held my child and then they died. I knew what she meant but it still knocked the wind out of me. It still made me feel like - is she right? Do I have the right to be thinking this way? I mean I wasn't pregnant for a very long time but it still felt real to me and I don't bash the pregnant people I see. I don't say anything bad about them or wish them ill will. I don't even understand how she could say something like that... It upset me but then me being upset about it upset me and it was just a bad cycle.

I know my friends understand how I feel and I thank them everyday for listening to me because I'm sure to a point I feel like a broken record.

Ok - well I think I'm going to sign off for now and go to a little "Cyber Monday" Christmas shopping. :)

Random Fact: The movie New Moon's American premiere was held on 16 November 2009, which, in the lunar cycle, is a new moon

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Frustrated Today...

I'm frustrated and I don't even know how to word it. I almost want to go back to a time when being pregnant didn't matter so much.

Random Fact: The first domain name ever registered was


What's wrong with me?

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Pretty Lax...

So I've been pretty lax with the blogging...did you miss me? LOL...There's been alot of things flying through my head; alot of things I'm not sure I even know how to write down.

My appointment two weeks ago didn't go as well as we wanted it to. There's still promise, but it's not as high of a percentage as we would have liked. It's a wait and see game right now which sucks. There's not another word for it. It's annoying...I'm hoping but trying not to get my hopes up; it's an odd feeling and very hard.

Work is insance. We have a tech out sick which unfortunately stresses all of us and when stress increase tolerance lowers and it's just not fun. The tech was supposed to be back on Monday but we got word today she's probably gonna be out for atleast the rest of the week. Mind you I want her to get better and be healthy before she comes back, I hold no ill will against her; I just wish Walmart was more fluid in allowing us to shift schedules and change hours because we need to. *Sigh*

I want to write today but I feel like my brain has shut off. Maybe I'll go try again for a bit...I have a couple of stories started but it's like -- when I get the inspiration I usually can't write because I'm at work or because I have to go to bed or something like's so frustrating...but such is life I guess...

47 Days until Christmas!! :) Which means my vacation is that much closer!! I can't wait...I need this vacation...

Ok..Here I go...Inspiration strike now!

Random Fact: The dial tone of a normal telephone is in the key of "F".

Wednesday, November 4, 2009


“May the love hidden deep inside your heart find the love waiting in your dreams. May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays.”

Sunday, November 1, 2009


I wish this wasn't so hard.