Thursday, February 16, 2012

Brighter Tomorrow

Today, so far, has been much brighter and more positive. I feel less bitchy. LOL. I think a lot, or at least I'm hoping, that most of the problem was the fact that I have a hard time speaking my mind when it's going to lead to a confrontation or an argument, especially when I don't have all my thoughts in a row.
I don't like it when my thoughts are jumbled or are conflicting. It's like I have both sides of the coin and it's just balancing on its edge; having that feeling just throws me off kilter.

Random fact: Friggatriskaidekaphobia is the fear of Friday the 13th.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012


Irritated, miserable, and generally just pissed off.

Why you ask?

Trust be told I don't know which only upsets me further. I don't like feeling this way - if I'm upset about something I prefer (and actually rather like) knowing what it is that I'm upset about. What's worse is that seeing as how something, whatever it be, is bothering me - everything (and everyone) else pisses me off because I'm short fused to begin with and it takes a horrible amount of patience not to just snap with everyone.


I just want to either figure out what is bothering me and be able to voice it or just decide that it's not that important and get over it. J thinks I'm mad at him - which I'm not or at least I don't think that I am - but again because I'm already pre-irritated, everything just seems to be wrong. I just want to scream or yell or something to get this underlying feeling of bitchiness to go away.

I'd like to blame it on lack of sleep but I really don't think it is. Mia slept for like 6 hours straight last night, 1130 to 5, and then J got up with her at 9 so I could get another 1/2 hour. And even if she hadn't slept as long as she did last night, J and I take turns getting up with her so that we both get a halfway decent sleep during the night.


I think I'm just going to go to bed and hope for a brighter tomorrow.

My Girl. My Pride. My Joy.

Random Fact: The shark in "Jaws" was named Bruce, after Steven Spielberg's lawyer.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

1 Month Gone

Mia in her Minnie outfit
Time has flown by. Our little girl is already over a month old. She's slowly starting to outgrow her newborn clothes. Today she wore one of the 0-3 outfits that we got for her. It has Minnie Mouse and strawberries on it. :) Have to start getting her Disney-fied so that she's ready for her introduction to The Mouse. :) Hopefully she'll come to love Disney as much as her mom. I absolutely can not wait to take her. I know that she probably won't remember her first few time(s) but it's going to be so magical watching things through her eyes.

Her little personality is coming out more and more. I love that she is starting to giggle and giving her first smiles - though I don't think she really realizes what she's doing. I've been trying to capture them in a picture but she's very sneaky with those smiles ;-)

She still has all of her blonde hair and it's getting thicker. Some days I think that it's starting to get darker, sometimes a dirty blonde - sometimes a red tint, but I wonder sometimes if it's the light or because it is starting to get thicker. Either way, she's gorgeous. Her eyes are still that deep slate blue/grey/purple-y color. She is so laid back and just a very chill baby. Definitely has J's personality.

Striped socks!
She is just absolutely perfect. We didn't know how easily you could love someone so completely, totally, thoroughly without question,  you've only known for minutes. At times it still feels just so surreal that she's here. It feels all the time we waited for her has just melted away and, while the memories of that pain will never go away, it has definitely been eased.

She's sleeping ok throughout the night; she gets up about every four hours. We're trying to keep her awake more during the day, which at times is so much more easier said than done, so that she'll sleep more at night but sometimes that's easier said than done at times. Even despite the sometimes sleepless nights she's a pure joy. We're trying to employ some of the ideas that we've read about with regards to the sleep but...well...we'll get there. LOL.

Random Fact: The rock band Van Halen states in their contract that a bowl of milk chocolate M&M's has to be backstage; with all the brown ones removed.