Sunday, July 17, 2011

Still in Awe...

So I'm officially 14 weeks now. I think part of me is still in denial - even after 2 ultrasounds confirming that there is life in there. Even after seeing his/her little hands waving and him/her sucking her thumb; After getting an adorably cute picture of in-utero feet, part of me still feels like it isn't real. I'm glad that it is though. After all the months that turned into years of trying, the tears that were cried, the anger, the self-loathing, the dream that J and I share is finally coming true. Soon, we are going to be parents. We are going to have a little one of our own.

The other part of me however feels like we have so much to do and not enough time. I'm worried the nursery won't be ready in time. I've had a nightmare about delivering in winter (which is when Nugget is due) and having the inappropriate attire, all summer clothing, to take the baby home in. Not to mention the giant red gummy bear that attacked me when I ignored my craving for them. Haven't ignored a craving again...Don't need a watermelon rolling over me or me swallowing a watermelon whole or giving birth to a watermelon instead of a baby...See now - all the scary thoughts are starting to run through my head as to what my subconscious can do to me while I sleep.

We've picked out the crib we want along with some other baby gear. It's hard to know what's really important to have versus what would be a luxury versus what's completely unneccessary. The car seat is a must obviously, along with the crib. But what about things like a wipe warmer? Or how about the sound machines that play the white noise (or crickets, streams, heartbeats...etc)? These are just a few of the thoughts that pass through my head on a daily basis.

And now I think it's time for bed. Right after I make sure I have no cravings...

Random Fact: Tampons have been used by U.S. Army medics as emergency wound care dressings. And as a side note, at the high school I attended I saw them used by the wrestling and soccer teams for nose bleeds...

Friday, July 15, 2011

More pictures....

Had another, unexpected, ultrasound yesterday. Midwife couldn't find the heartbeat with the doppler, spinning J and I into a whole other dimension...Everything is ok though. Strong heartbeat and a wiggly baby. :)

We even got a fairly decent picture of his/her feet with all the little teeny toes. :)

Random Fact: Statistically, you are more likely to be killed by a cow attack than a shark attack.

Saturday, July 9, 2011


We're pregnant.

Our gorgeous, amazing baby. 

Mommy and Daddy can't wait to meet you in January.