Friday, September 16, 2011

Kick, Kick, Wallop

Tonight was the first night that Nugget kicked that there was no doubt what I was feeling. It's so cool and so weird. It makes it so much more real. There really is someone in there growing and becoming more active. My hand actually moved. I've been feeling little thumps and taps but it's hard to distinguish sometimes whether it's baby or gas bubbles moving around (and let's be honest here - pregnant women get gas. Get over it). What has better is that there was more than one - there were about five - and I could feel the hand or foot (whichever was actually doing the thumping) as it hit me. I just wish J could have been home instead of working to feel it as well.

Today was a great day. :)

Random Fact: Mosquitoes are attracted to the color blue twice as much as to any other color.

Ugh! So tired of it....

I should really, really be sleeping however......I have a mini-rant.

I don't know why there is even a speed zone outside of my house! No one follows it and no one enforces it so why bother?!?!? I want spike strips and the ability to use them consequence free. Or better yet - I'd love to put a speed bump or a speed divot (think inverted speed bump) in the road at the edge of my property so that when speeders hit it they know. It's just so frustrating and it seems to have gotten worse this year. I don't know if I'm just noticing it more or what but it's getting to the point that I'm going to contact someone - as soon as I find out who to contact. Part of my reasoning is that there are kids in the area (not to mention L who I nanny for and my own bundle of joy) and there are more people who are walking on the road now (which is another whole topic on it's own). I'm afraid that someone is going to get hurt or killed because some idiot can maintain 30 mph for 200 ft (or whatever the distance is - which isn't far in reality) until they reach the village limit. I literally live like 3 or 4 houses from the sign! UGH!
Now that the speed rant is over....

Things here are doing good. Nugget is kicking more and more (and I can feel it!) and J has gotten to feel it - both by listening to my belly and by actually feeling it through my belly with his hand. Had a really good appointment on Monday where the midwife said I was doing wonderfully and we got to hear the heartbeat on the doppler again. Life is good. J took my first belly shot picture other day - at my request (yeah I know!). It wasn't that bad. I don't want to not have any but I've been so anti picture my entire life that it's hard to believe that I'll ever look decent in one. I honestly didn't look too bad. I haven't gained any weight but that's probably going to start to change soon. I've been trying to watch what I eat (and not as it goes in my mouth either - lol) and make healthier choices when I find that I am hungry but it's hard and doesn't always go to plan. LOL.

Alright - back to trying to sleep.

Random Fact: A male butterfly can smell a female butterfly from several miles away!

Sunday, September 4, 2011

New Pictures

21 Weeks

Just over half way there. Five weeks later and I'm feeling a bit more confident about the pregnancy. I still have moments where I'll send myself into a bit of a panic about some things but those times are getting further apart, slowly. I'm also trying not to worry (ha!) as much. We had an appointment almost three weeks ago and we got to hear Nugget's heartbeat with the doppler. Nice and strong. I wish I could feel him (or her) move a bit more but our midwife said not to worry about it if I'm not feeling it consistently yet because of where the placenta is sitting. We also had an ultrasound last Thursday for the anatomy scan and everything looks good.

I worry about posting things about my pregnancy because I don't want to offend people. I've asked a couple of people if they mind when I post little blubs about the pregnancy or update pictures and I was told absolutely not; that I shouldn't feel guilty by any means (that I wasn't allowed) and that I have every right to enjoy my pregnancy - which I am believe me.

It just seems like now that I'm pregnant, I'm seeing other people who are struggling with infertility and I'm wondering if I was just blinded by my own pain to see it or if they are just now starting to coming out and talking about it. I certainly don't want to offend or hurt someone unnecessarily because I haven't forgotten what it was like to yearn for something so badly and having the ability to do nothing that it hurts to the core. I want those people to know - heck I want anyone to know - if you need someone to talk to, vent to, someone to ask questions, or just someone to listen I'm here. I will do all of those things. I am here for anyone who is going through this horrible, widespread pain.

And at the same time, I don't want people to make me feel guilty because I am enjoying every moment of this pregnancy. J and I have waited for this for a long time. I feel incredibly blessed to have this life growing inside of me. This precious life, bundle of joy. I love it at night when he listens to my belly at night and talks to the baby. The look of joy on his face and the amount I feel in my heart swells to new levels everytime. I didn't know it was possible to love him more than I already did but it is and it just keeps growing...

Now if we could only come up with a solid, loved, and agreed upon girl's name that fits my picky criteria and that J likes...LOL. We have a boy name all figured out, it wasn't hard at all. The name flows well together, goes with our last name, doesn't incite a fit of giggles when you say it out loud, has a couple of decent, non-tease-able, potential nicknames...etc Girl names however have become word association games and there always seems to be some reason why we don't this name or that. Was it this hard for our parents? I'm sure we'll find the perfect name, somehow, someway. Suggestions are welcome...hint hint hint...LOL

Random Fact: A tiny fire extinguisher came with Xerox's first successful copier because it would tend to overheat and burst into flames.