Irritated, miserable, and generally just pissed off.
Why you ask?
Trust be told I don't know which only upsets me further. I don't like feeling this way - if I'm upset about something I prefer (and actually rather like) knowing what it is that I'm upset about. What's worse is that seeing as how something, whatever it be, is bothering me - everything (and everyone) else pisses me off because I'm short fused to begin with and it takes a horrible amount of patience not to just snap with everyone.
I just want to either figure out what is bothering me and be able to voice it or just decide that it's not that important and get over it. J thinks I'm mad at him - which I'm not or at least I don't think that I am - but again because I'm already pre-irritated, everything just seems to be wrong. I just want to scream or yell or something to get this underlying feeling of bitchiness to go away.
I'd like to blame it on lack of sleep but I really don't think it is. Mia slept for like 6 hours straight last night, 1130 to 5, and then J got up with her at 9 so I could get another 1/2 hour. And even if she hadn't slept as long as she did last night, J and I take turns getting up with her so that we both get a halfway decent sleep during the night.
I think I'm just going to go to bed and hope for a brighter tomorrow.
|My Girl. My Pride. My Joy.|