I hate waiting.
I understand and, believe it or not, respect it's purpose but seriously? I've have enough.
I keep forgetting that Easter is this weekend. I'm excited about that. I get to see my family and I get an extra day off from work. The second is kind of a selfish reason but I'll take the extra day when I can get it. The other reason means my surgery is 2 weeks from the Friday.
I don't have much else to say....I think I'm going to go read for awhile before heading to bed.
Random Fact: Samuel Clemens (Mark Twain) was born on and died on days when Halley's Comet can be seen. During his life he predicted that he would die when it could be seen.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
I hate waiting.
Posted by Holly K at Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
Late post today...it's actually almost tomorrow...not too much to say today. Work was ok, had a moment of inner melt down but I managed to keep it internal for the most part and smile. I'm getting pretty good at that. I just wish someone would realize that I've learned my lesson of patience and that I can't have everything I want when I want it. I've also learned that I can't control everything. Can we please move forward now? I think I've been very good. My doctor's office even helps me learn becasue I finally broke down and was going to call them to ask them the question I've had on my mind for about 2 weeks now...I was going to try and wait to ask them at the pre-op appointment but I caved and called but their phones were shut off for the day giving me the option to get ahold of the answering service or calling tomorrow. I don't know if I'll have the nerve to call tomorrow. I hate feeling like I'm bugging people and being a pain in their neck. Is it so bad that I just want answers; that I want to move forward? That I want to know the joy that most of my other friends have? *Sigh*
I think I'm going to get started working on family trees again...I had started it in high school for a project in one of my history classes and I became fascinated with ancestry. I wonder if I can find my old notes.....I'll have to check with my mom.
I think I'm going to go read for awhile. I've got to find some new books to read. ;)
Random Fact: Most elephants weigh less than the tongue of a blue whale
Posted by Holly K at Monday, March 29, 2010
Sunday, March 28, 2010
I've finally finished organizing my Disney Pin collection...Well for now atleast...LOL.
Don't have too much else to say today. Work was ok...I think I'm getting over the funk I was in as things aren't irritating me too much anymore.
I've finally got the date thing figured out on this new layout. Took me back to my computer programming class in high school but I figured it out...LOL. I loved and hated that class. I also may try making my own layout...who knows?
Posted by Holly K at Sunday, March 28, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
I used our camera for the 1st time since our January vacation and I totally forgot that I hadn't taken the pictures off from it so I got that nice surprise yesterday when I went to transfer the pictures I had just taken to the computer.
Posted by Holly K at Saturday, March 27, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
I don't know whether I'm going to get this published all in one sitting or if it will even be posted today but I started this thought process in another blog and I wanted to continue it because well...I think I have a very valid point. I wonder how many people will agree with me...
Since when does having a reality television show make you a star? This thought process actually got started at work on Thursday when one of my co-workers was talking about the latest episode of Dancing with the Stars which of course caused us to focus on the "Stars" of the show and one name caught my ears...
When did she become a "Star"? Because that's not even in the top 10 people I think of when I think of someone who is a star or even someone who is on the cusp of being famous. Heck I don't think she'd be in the top 25 or 50.
Personally I can't stand her; I couldn't stand her on the episode or two that I happened to catch of Jon and Kate + Eight. I found her to be very controlling, uptight, and mean. I didn't like her attitude or how she treated people. I think the "fame" went to her head and while I don't necessarily blame her for all of it; I personally think that when there started to be marital issues (or rumors thereof) TLC should have said it's over; maybe we'll do a yearly special or bi-yearly special just to update viewers on how the kids are doing because that was supposed to be the focus of the show. How a normal family handles having a set of twins and sextuplets while trying to work, handle the sitter(s), handle getting (and paying for) groceries, diapers, formula and still having enough time to stay connected as a couple while making memories as a family. I'm sorry a normal working class family does not live in a multi-million dollar custom built/designed home, nor does a normal family have personal/live-in nannies. She used those kids to get what she wanted for herself and it cost her something that I personally don't think it was worth - her marriage. Now I don't know the family personally so I don't know if there were problems before the tv show and I tried to stay away (by not reading/watching/listening) the drama but would you really have tried to have more kids with someone you couldn't stand anymore?
Don't get me wrong, I'm not harping on people who can afford it but it's not your typical working family. Nor am I harping on her for having kids just because we are struggling. I just don't like the drama that follows her everywhere. I mean those kids are going to hear about all the nasty things their parents said about each other and what/who they did- it's called the Internet - who hasn't googled their name or names of people they know before? I would just like to see Kate (and Jon - who while not included specifically in this is no angel) just fade into black - even for just a bit - to get their act together. Figure yourselves and your family out - without the public eye watching - and then if you still decide that you want the life of fame - do it for yourself and make it on your own name - not because you're part or were part of a show based upon your kids. Don't ride on the coattails of your children who didn't ask for this. And that goes for other moms of multiple children...you know who I'm talking about.
Random Fact: The stage were the television sitcom "Friends" was shot on is said to be haunted.
Posted by Holly K at Friday, March 26, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Today was really good. Maybe I'm moving beyond this funk -- I really hope so because it's really irritating. How's that for irony? LOL.
The closer this surgery gets the more nervous I get despite how much I honestly try not to think about it. I got a phone call from the hospital that brought it to the forefront of my thoughts today. They needed to go over some questions with me. 21 days. Three weeks. Everything is going to be ok....
I find it amazing how something that you don't ever think about - ie getting pregnant - becomes the breath you breathe and takes over every compassing thought you can have. Why is that? It's gotten easier not to think about it but the thought runs through my head - whether it be baby names or dreams that I've had....
It's cool here today and it started rain just as I was leaving work. I think it's stopped now but I wish the weather would warm up and stay warm. I have a lilac bush that I'm excited to see bloom this year. We bought it in the late summer last year and of course it had already bloomed. I'm hoping it's going to be the dark wine color lilac...I'm just hoping it's not another white lilac. I already have one that I grafted from my parents house.
In other news, the renovations in the livingroom are almost complete. Jim hung the crowne moulding last week and has most of the floor moulding cut. Now it's just to put that up, fill the nail holes, sand and spot paint. After that it's all cosmetic - hanging pictures and such. I also got a new bookcase for the livingroom. :)
I've been on a purging mission lately - getting rid of everything that we don't need, use or that's just useless clutter. . . It's been going pretty well and it's really cathartic. There's still more to go but it's refreshing just to see how much is done.
Ok, I'm going to work on organizing. :)
Random Fact: The first known contraceptive was crocodile dung, used by Egyptians in 2000 B.C.
Posted by Holly K at Thursday, March 25, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Waiting sucks. There is really no other word to describe it.
Spent this morning trying to organize my Disney Pin collection - I'm blogging now so you can see how far I've gotten. LOL. Oh maybe tonight I'll get farther.
I'm going to try to start blogging again atleast once weekly from this point forward. I used to be really good; I used to blog atleast once or twice a week and then I stopped because I felt I had nothing to say. Or atleast nothing new to say.
Yesterday at work was better. Still think I'm just sick and tired of people but I handled yesterday better. Does that make sense? I have to wonder if some of my problem is the stupid birth control they put me on. Or maybe I'm just tired of waiting and want to get the show on the road....Either way - 22 more days.
Well off I go to get ready for work. I'm going to find something positive in today. I'm going to have a good day. I'm going to shake this funk.
Random Fact: The dramatic centerpiece of Disneyland Park, Sleeping Beauty Castle, stands a mere 77 feet tall but looks much larger due to forced perspective scaling architecture. The castle is trimmed in 22 karat gold leaf to ensure it glitters even on cloudy days
Posted by Holly K at Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
Today was better. I think it's I'm just seriously sick of people. It's probably just a slump - I've had them before. I think it's just I have so much racing through my mind that I'm finding alot of things just annoy the ever living crap out of me. My tolerance is shot - which is pretty bad considering I work in a customer service industry. I'll be ok just have to get through this funk.
The good news is there's only 24 or so days until my surgery. yay.
Here's something more positive....My mom has a new friend...She's very friendly but still adjusting to her new home.
Isn't she cute?
Posted by Holly K at Monday, March 22, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
For lack of a better word, I am frustrated. I am angry. I am sick of seeing and hearing about people getting what I so desperately want yet can not have - yet. I will throw that little word of hope in there because there is a glimmer of hope. I don't want to come across as insensitive or this cruel old bat...I am genuinely happy for them and I don't want anyone to go through a heartbreak such as miscarriage or the loss of a child. I wish them nothing but the best and I will be there to share in their joy; at the same time I wish it was me.
I hate that my doctor's office told me that I probably wouldn't be on the pill for more than 2 weeks and now it turns out I will have been on it for 6 and I don't know if I'm going to have to be on it after the surgery or not. I don't know how long after the surgery we're going to have to wait to start trying again. I hate that they got me in so quickly for the HSG and the MRI. Now it feels like they are dragging their feet with the surgery. I wish I didn't even have to have this surgery - I wish I knew that this was going to all be worth it.
I just want to scream. I just want to find a hole and crawl in there - to stay.
Random Fact: The coconut is the largest seed in the world.
Posted by Holly K at Sunday, March 21, 2010