Sunday, September 27, 2009

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” - Maria Robinson

I spent tonight (well about 2 hours) holding an absolutely, positively adorable little girl who is about 5 days old. I did it willingly, and I loved it and it didn't hurt. I was content; in absolutely bliss. Yes I shed some tears but so did others around the table of which I was sitting. I was also very stunned to learn that what I've gone through had a profound effect on the person who gave birth to this child. I was very moved and touched and I've come to the conclusion that either the hole is still there and I've just become accustomed to the pain or maybe, just maybe - it's healing. I prefer the latter. It was just a very good night overall. :)

Had a good lesson on Thursday. Used more muscle groups that haven't been activated in a while. It felt good. I really love (and missed) riding. It's a good mind occupier.

The season premieres so far have a been a bit blah. I just am not sure how I feel about them. Maybe I just expected more fireworks with how the season ended in May....I don't know but the good news is that the season has begun and with it the twists and turns that it always brings.

The cold weather is starting to drift in bits at a time. I feel like there is so much more to do before the cold cold weather hits. The livingroom has to get finished and everything that it on the fireplace has to be put back. We have to have the furnace serviced (well that needs to be done prior to January) and all the wood needs to be stacked (well finished - it's about half done.). There just seems to list a mile long at the moment. One step at a time, one day at a time.

I think I'm going to head off to bed now. :)

Random fact: Kermit the Frog is left-handed, ya know in case you ever wondered. :)


Sheri said...

LMAO about Kermit the frog and AWESOME about the baby holding. Honestly there is something SO therapeutic about holding a's crazy...I'm glad you are healing my friend, this is awesome news! Ok now I really am going to bed :p